big blessings in little packages...

As I sat on the couch deliriously sleepy, nursing my sweet baby girl at 4 am this morning, I sat with a huge smile on my face. The newness & wonder of having a baby in the house hasn't worn off yet & I hope it never does! I just sat there amazed at how tiny she is and so perfect. Taking in the sweet little sounds she makes, the way she looks at me while nursing, & grabs at me with her tiny little hands. I think that Chad gets annoyed with me at times (although he never complains!) because I'll ask him to stop what he's doing & just come & stare at one of the kids with me. I just don't want to miss anything! I'm so thankful to be able to have a baby all over again. I know it sounds crazy, but I'm thrilled to change those poopy diapers & wake up at all hours of the night to feed her. I think I appreciate it more now. Not that I wasn't just as thrilled to have Kaylee &Trevor. I just think that I realize how quickly they do grow & am older & more able to see what is important now. I don't have it all figured out, by any means, but I'm learning! I'm learning that it doesn't matter if my house is super clean or if there are 3 loads of laundry on the couch that need to be folded & put away, or the floor needs mopping....the list goes on & on, but you get the point. What's important is my family, loving my kids & spending time with them, teaching them. All the cleaning can wait, my kids can't. It's not always so easy. I'm the first one to admit that I'm not the most laid back Mommy in the world (ok, so that's a huge understatement!) And it wasn't quite as easy to sit nursing with a huge smile on my face at 12 this afternoon with Trevor hanging off the side of the chair & constantly bumping me & asking when we can eat, what's for lunch or telling me that his stomach is growling...and trying to get some schooling done with Kaylee while looking around at the huge pile of laundry on the couch, the sink & counters overflowing with dishes & the mess left from breakfast..knowing that I'd have to clean that up before I'd have room to work on lunch for the kids. It's a bit overwhelming..ok a lot overwhelming, but I wouldn't change anything. I'm so thankful to have not only one precious little blessing, but 3! And a wonderful loving husband who loves us & takes care of us!


Lord, help me not to take for granted the time I have with the precious little ones you have blessed me with. Help me to prioritize & do the things that matter first. Help me to teach them your truths.....